I wrote down my regular chores - dust, vacuum and mop first and second floor and do the laundry (which these days includes a time consuming trip to the laundry mat on the other side of town as I await the delivery of my new dryer (NEXT Saturday), then I added a few ME things such as yoga, reading, make Christmas list, watch a recorded TV show or movie, check-in with my favorite blogs, and write a post. I made a relatively good cup of coffee, which is essential to my weekend morning happiness, let the dog out, fed and watered her, then headed back upstairs to start stalking, uhmm, I mean reading blogs. This is how I learn what works on the blog-a-sphere and what does not. Everything I read is basically about house and home, DIY...which is decidedly not what this blog is about, but I have not found anything similar to mine yet so I treat myself to one of my not so secret obsessions - home-keeping. I'm such a throw back!
Well, reading led to clicking to this and that link, trying to follow people on Pinterest and Instagram, etc. and before I knew it the door bell was ringing to bring me out of my internet induced stuppor. As I rushed downstairs I realized the frig repairman had arrived, which meant over two hours had passed and I had not really done a thing! I mean I did read blogs, but two hours worth? What is wrong with me? This is what the internet does to me - takes over my life when I go onto it. I do not understand how people can get anything done when they are on the internet reading blogs, checking out Instagram, Pinterest, Facebook, and whatever else there is out there. It just consumes me. PLUS, I find it not always super user friendly when I try to enter a give-a-way or figure out what all the different ways are you follow people (Instagram, Pinterest, Google +, Facebook, Flickr, Twitter, and LinkedIn). And why do we need so many choices for following? Are they actually necessary? These are the things that end up sucking my time away and they are not intuitive for me. Does everyone really have the time to follow other people on ALL the options available and which options are really the best ones?
The repairman is now gone. I have started the laundry, found some new cool blogs which I am following and have connected with them on Pinterest and Instagram, have almost finished my blog post, and still there are too many things I did not start or complete and it is nearly noon. I have been u for hours! When this happens I feel compeled to swear off the internet. Too much distraction, too little time. One of my favorite cousins, a youngish mother of two and nursing student who also is the baker for her husband's restaurant, announced to us at Thanksgiving that she had shut down her Facebook page and was closing her cellphone account, to which my daughters cried, "But how will we connect with you?" Uhmmm, how about email or that old fashioned thing called a home phone? She expressed her frustration with the constant plug-in to the outside world, how anyone can reach you anywhere and how her time gets lost when she enters the internet. Here she is, a thirty-something year old saying all the things I have been thinking and fighting against since Adam brought the internet into my life back in 2003.
Another thing I struggle with when reading blogs is I find myself ever so slightly jealous of those who can make their blogs their profession. Are they supporting themselves or are they supported by their husband's job which allows them this luxury? I do not begrudge anyone the gift of being their own boss, but sometimes I feel so jealous. Being in control of my time and being able to work from home at something I would actually enjoy would be a dream come true. I wonder if I had gotten on the proverbial bandwagon back when it was all just a flicker if I would be abe to actually "work" at my blog instead of squeezing in time here and there on the weekends after a long frustrating week at work when what I really need to be doing are errands and chores, etc.
Just more questions about life and where it is taking me. This is my path, as Grace's friend likes to say. I want to change my life in some way, honestly in many ways, and I need to figure out how to do it. And I need to learn how to manage my internet time effectively so I don't get sucked into the void.
I'm off to the laundry mat and a few errands. I hope I will be able to cross off more than just a few things from my list by the time my weekend is over.